Monday, December 21, 2009
Trying to please the displeased.
I used to be able to write freely. To say whatever I want to say.
Post whatever I want to post.
I didn't fear judgment.
What changed?
Well, it's different when a bunch of people judge you. It's inevitable for people who don't understand, and don't take time to understand to judge you fairly.
Such opinions, I never cared for.
This time it's one lone person who knows me well.
I fear such judgment.I try not to disappoint people I love. People who mean a lot to me.
But sometimes it takes chunks out of me.
Like, I can't be myself because I'm too scared of displeasing them.
Truth be told; I am no longer a pessimist.
The bad side of this is I have a taste for extremes: I am overly optimistic.
I am blinded by the light. 
I can no longer see much eviiiiiil from the world.
It's true.I don't know which is more screwed up:
A negative point of view or an innocent point of view
I'm not one to judge. I know they're both broken anyway.On the bright side, I am happier being an optimist. 
How.ever.
It's why I am being told off.
"You should be more aware of the evil in the world!"
"You should be cautious; choose your friends wisely.""There are so many bad people out there!"
Yes, yes, yes. I know these.
Let me live a little.
I can't wear your safety suit forever.
And when I make a mistake, please remember I'm only human.
Posted at 05:41 pm by Chelsea_ann
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